Shame
I went for a meal a few days ago with a group of men. I have been meeting with this group for many years. It was a good evening until the last few minutes. We asked for the bill. It came to a lot more than I had expected - but the bill was very difficult to read so we couldn't decifer it. My response - as well as that of one of the others - was to throw money at it. I dug in my pocket and put its whole contents into the saucer containing the bill. Another man tried to reason and negotiate who should pay what - according to what they had ordered. A third wanted to find out what exactly to bill meant and to work it out that way. I had thrown in money just to avoid all of this and I said so. I had had a few beers. Alfer a while someone said something urging us to get on with it as the waiters would get fed up with us. I said - in a voice intended only for my friends
"They think we're all cunts already - they've probably spat in our food".
The two friends opposite shushed me.
"Did I say that loud". I said. They said I did. I apologised and said that I doubted that they'd heard. Although I knew I was out of order I was immediately reacting to being dissaproved of. There was lots of awkwardness - both about the bill and my outburst.
The next morning I felt pissed off that we had been overcharged.