Wonder
"Do you ever wonder how you ended up with..." he started saying when we were interupted by something.
I knew what he mean't but I asked him to finish the sentance anyway.
"Of course I do", I said, "All the time".
We arrived at the house and didn't carry on the conversation.

I continued it this morning in my head in my bath. You start off because you want to - I thought - and then you carry on because you want to.